So I am down 20 pounds, which is insane considering I have only been going 3 weeks. Now I am at a stand still. Haven't lost or gained, but I am fighting frustration. Am I eating enough (my calories remain at anywhere from 800 to 1500). How do I crashing my metabolism? I know 2 pounds a week is the norm, but I am so heavy, shouldn't I be losing a little more. It is enough to drive you crazy.
Overall, if I really think about it I have done very well. Even my cheat meals have not be horrible. I should be very proud of myself. My cravings are pretty much no existant (thank you, thank you) The one part I may be weakest on is exercising, so that is my focus for the coming week. Hit the gym at least 3 times, setting myself to go 5.
I need to keep going and not all these thoughts bring me down. After all the important thing right now is eat healthy, eat when I am hungry and eat only what I need. Then exercise to strengthen my body.
Whole New Path (To A Whole New Me?)
What significant moment in life made you start getting healthy? This was the question.
"My realization was two fold:1) Realizing how much fear I have in doing certain things because of my weight. I hold my breath everytime I fly that I can fit in the seat and feel ashamed of carrying my own extension belt and ashamed I barely fit. I don't go to anything like an amusement park or a cruise cause I know I won't fit in the seats or too big to do any excursions.
Number 2) was the ultimate nail. My friends are all married and having children (I am 32) and I realize that I am getting older and no closer to having that dream. I am waisting my life away by always saying tomorrow I will lose weight, tomorrow I will get out more, tomorrow.... The tomorrows keep coming, and I don't change my ways, I just grow a day older. I also grow closer and closer to someday having health problems. I am lucky so far, but that can continue only for so long.
So I am on day three and it is going to get tough, but I keep trying to remember why it is worth eating healthier and exercising. I have a LONG way to go (150-200 pounds to lose). I have a lot of life to live and I have got to stop living everday for tomorrow. I have done it before, and yes everytime I have failed and gone in reverse of where I am wanting to go, but I will do that no more.
"My realization was two fold:1) Realizing how much fear I have in doing certain things because of my weight. I hold my breath everytime I fly that I can fit in the seat and feel ashamed of carrying my own extension belt and ashamed I barely fit. I don't go to anything like an amusement park or a cruise cause I know I won't fit in the seats or too big to do any excursions.
Number 2) was the ultimate nail. My friends are all married and having children (I am 32) and I realize that I am getting older and no closer to having that dream. I am waisting my life away by always saying tomorrow I will lose weight, tomorrow I will get out more, tomorrow.... The tomorrows keep coming, and I don't change my ways, I just grow a day older. I also grow closer and closer to someday having health problems. I am lucky so far, but that can continue only for so long.
So I am on day three and it is going to get tough, but I keep trying to remember why it is worth eating healthier and exercising. I have a LONG way to go (150-200 pounds to lose). I have a lot of life to live and I have got to stop living everday for tomorrow. I have done it before, and yes everytime I have failed and gone in reverse of where I am wanting to go, but I will do that no more.
Ramblings on a Friday
Flashback memory time: The Babysitters Club. How I loved those books. I remember being so excited when there was one hitting the shelves. Why don't I read like that anymore? I don't hardly read at all anymore. I am keeping up with my reading through books on tape. Not entirely a bad thing, but I really should read more.
I don't think I would like a job counting alligator eggs in the swamp. How do people get that job? Is it something they want to do, or is like "Yeah we are getting worried that Alligators aren't having as many babies. Hey Bill, Kevin, why don't ya'll ride around and see how many nests and how many eggs you can find". Crazy!!! The guys seem to love it though. Good for them. I think I will just stick with what I am doing.
I am spending too much money lately, I need to curve my spending if I want to get into a new house soon. After my DC trip, I will try an anti-consumerism month again. It went well, and I saved some good dough. It's time to do that again. New clothes are fun, but I got plenty now.
I don't think I would like a job counting alligator eggs in the swamp. How do people get that job? Is it something they want to do, or is like "Yeah we are getting worried that Alligators aren't having as many babies. Hey Bill, Kevin, why don't ya'll ride around and see how many nests and how many eggs you can find". Crazy!!! The guys seem to love it though. Good for them. I think I will just stick with what I am doing.
I am spending too much money lately, I need to curve my spending if I want to get into a new house soon. After my DC trip, I will try an anti-consumerism month again. It went well, and I saved some good dough. It's time to do that again. New clothes are fun, but I got plenty now.